Who Are You When Nobody Is Watching

 I do recall to this date when our English teacher asked us to speak on “Who am I?” I sat there with my chin resting on my hand thinking which of the ‘me’s I should talk about. And it’s not like I had forgotten who I was; it was the arduous task of trying to determine which version of the “I” to present. Anyway, I change my behavior depending on with whom I’m speaking. I also had to come to the realization that the best and most authentic version of the ‘me’ that I can be is when I am alone and not performing for anyone else.

How do people behave when no one is around to see them; are we not all somewhat strange then? If no one is there to critic our walk, our tone, our expressions or even the type of clothes we put on, then a change happens. Perhaps we used to shout more, belt out tunes in the shower, or dance, because there are no observers to cramp one’s style. These are those peculiar and unique not socially acceptable at all aspects of every individual’s character that come out only when alone.

But then again it is not just about being alone it must be something beyond that something out of checklist that one cannot explain.
Oh, you know everyone has their own dark spots which deny the desired emotions from the world to enter there. But when [their caregivers?] are not present such thoughts may come into their mind. We may become egocentric, call for the downfall of a fellow human being, or let out what society terms as 

vulgar. This is the time in which we unleash the other side that is not very sweet to reminisce about the happy moments we had together.

But there’s kindness in us too. There is still that desire to be the best that we could be even if there is no one around to see it; to smile at a beggar, pick up some change dropped by a stranger, or random acts of kindness.

That is who we are; the things that we lock deep inside ourselves and the wrongs that we commit. We are the words left unsaid and the feelings left unspoken We are the smile on the face nobody ever sees.

Thus, the question – Who Are You When Nobody’s Watching? What do you when the camera is not rolling, the lights are turned and everyone has had enough of you? Do you still recognize yourself or do become a different person or person you do not know at all?

Lastly, perhaps, the right question to ask is, which version of you do you wish to be; whether you are being seen or not?